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The inhale James took fed him before what lay atop the kitchen table.

 

Pot roast tended for hours by Mama’s patient hand; its meat slowly giving way to heat, now soft and supple, the tension pulled from the muscle like a peaceful dream does in fitful sleep.

 

Savory steam exhaled from the iron pot at the center of the table, filling the quiet space between the Bolton family with comfort.

 

Shoulders grazed politely, hands palmed lower backs as they moved past one another in the small kitchen. Silverware clanked softly against plates as Baby Girl set the table. Her small hands clutched the cutlery with purpose, her brow furrowed in concentration: from left to right—fork, knife, spoon—just as she’d been taught.

 

Late summer air slipped through the open windows, its southern heat never needing permission to enter. Floral notes and the promise of change melded with the sweet charm of cornbread pulled from the oven. The golden bread glistened like a trophy, one each soul in the room would carry with them after tonight.

 

Bitter greens accompanied sweet ham in a shallow dish while iced tea stood tall in a pitcher, the glass sweating as beads of water streaked its surface.

 

The chairs filled quietly. Only Mama’s soft tone broke the threshold as she helped her youngest settle into the big chair, two encyclopedias stacked beneath her to give her proper height above the table’s edge.

 

Mama took her seat across from James. When their gaze met, the lines around her eyes compressed while the corner of his mouth lifted in gentle appreciation. Instead of voicing it, they let the night unfold, trusting dinner to give them the strength and well-being they’d need for the big day.

 

“Mmhn, you know better, Ellie,” Mama corrected when the little girl reached for a cube of ham tempting her from the hot dish. Ellie gave a guilty smile and sat on her hands.

 

Mama smiled. “Thank you, Baby Girl.”

 

Grandfather’s voice came gruff but warm. “James—do the honors, will ya?”

 

James straightened—the boy who once searched the room for permission now standing in the weight of his own voice.

 

He nodded and clasped hands with his loved ones. His grandfather’s grip was rough, calloused from years of fighting, while his sister’s small hand was fresh, ready for a future that would leave her steadier than those who came before her.

 

“Thank you, Lord, for the meal before us and for the hands that prepared it. Thank you for blessing us with what we have and for what’s to come. We ask for safety and guidance as we enter this time of change. Amen.”

 

The word murmured around the table, Baby Girl’s amen rising higher than the rest.

 

His father took the withered wooden ladle and spooned a portion of roast onto his son’s plate. James glanced at him, knowing the parents normally served themselves first.

 

The weight of his father’s gaze carried more than hope—it held respect. His mother’s eyes were softer but no less proud. She fixed him a generous serving of greens and a sizable cut of cornbread to soak up the salty oil sheen left on his plate.

 

Ellie wore a disagreeable expression at her smaller portion, but she ate without complaint, fast and easy as children do.

 

The rest of the table wasn’t so quick. Their bites came calm and measured, as they had the day before—and the one before that. But they knew this dinner wasn’t the same. It couldn’t be. With tomorrow’s vow, the bread tasted sweeter, the ham juicier, and the roast grounding them in a way that had nothing to do with the time it took to make it.

 

James washed down a fulfilling bite with the cold clarity of iced tea. His mind felt sturdy like the glass in his hand, though he couldn’t deny the same trepidation that left the cup damp.

 

“You have your things in order?” his father asked.

 

James set his fork down, careful and sure. “Yes, sir.”

 

Mama wiped her mouth with a napkin. “And you come straight home afterward. You hear?”

 

James nodded. “I will.”

 

“You sure you don’t want to go together?” his grandfather asked. His plate remained untouched. The law may have changed, but his memories of what it took to get here had not.

 

The moment held, cooling alongside the food on their plates. His parents waited for his answer. They’d support him either way—but they wanted the choice to be his.

 

James reclaimed his fork with a small smile. “I’m sure.”

 

Mama’s eyes glassed as she gripped her son’s hand, her touch as warm as the meal before them. She knew what this meant for them and she respected her son’s bravery. But she still said silent prayers along with another helping placed onto his plate.

 

His grandfather nodded at James and finally picked up his fork, ready to consume and share what had always been theirs.

 

Morning came fast, gently waking the world—waking James. He held onto its quiet confidence, an unspoken power that was already his.

 

His thumb traced the small voter card he’d been given the week before. Something small but big. He slipped it carefully into his pocket, smoothing it down along with his pressed trousers. Mama had seen to it that his shirt and pants were crisp, tie straight, and shoes polished.

 

His reflection stared back at him. He was still the same boy. Turning eighteen hadn’t truly changed him, but the way his chin held higher and his shoulders squared told him the kid he once was had made room for a man.

 

Stepping out of the quiet comfort of his room, he neared the kitchen. Bacon frying greeted him, its sizzle bright and familiar. Mama stood on the back porch speaking softly with his father. When she saw James, she stepped inside, his father following.

 

She took his wrists and instinctively pulled him away from the stove.

 

“Careful, careful,” she said, smoothing his shirt. “Wouldn’t want the grease to get you.”

 

He glanced down at his white dress shirt, suddenly worried.

 

“No, you’re fine, baby,” she said, her hands still pressed against his arms. “None of it got you.”

 

She held his gaze in the way mothers do, and he felt bashful all at once—nerves blooming where confidence had been.

 

“Ma,” he said with a smile. “You’re burning the bacon.”

 

Her attention snapped back as she hurried to the pan, the shriveled strips protesting.

 

His father shook his head, smiling softly as his hand settled on James’s shoulder. “You look fine, son. You really do.”

 

James gave an appreciative nod. “Well—I better get going.”

 

“You sure you don’t want to eat first?” Mama asked, already knowing his answer.

 

He shook his head. “No. Not very hungry.”

 

She understood and took a step back. He left them with an assured smile, then turned toward the front door.

 

His stomach may have been empty, but his spirit was sharp. And when he stepped onto the porch and into the warm, damp air, he finally felt that the color of his skin was enough.

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